Friday, August 31, 2007

on all things exposed

So I've mentioned the fact that my room doesn't have AC, and it's hot, so I've been camped out in the living room next to the steady flow of reasonably cold air, in pretty much the only corner of the house I can manage to not hate myself. It's just funny, because I had been living like this the whole last year I was in Egypt, never completely at ease, in someone else's home, on the couch, in the living room, in the middle of residential traffic for all to see...I think they call it couch surfing? or something to that effect...I just like to say I was homeless, it captures the heart of it really, always a place to crash, never a home. I was pretty determined to NOT go that route again this year, considering I will be in school full time and, well, do I need a good reason to want my own space? But, here I am, crashing in the living room because I can't take the heat....

maybe personal space is overrated, or maybe I'm proving it's necessary for my mental health.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

no reality in this country

I wanted to download the sermon from Reality last Sunday, but apparently the Reality website is blocked here...this is what happens:


I can still get the messages from itunes I think, but the most recent one hasn't shown up yet so I'm still not sure.

Bummer, eh?

Friday, August 24, 2007

hmmmm

So, ya, I'm here. It's hot. I miss you guys. Did I mention it's hot? It's a blazing furnace of muggy polluted smog. Love my apartment except I have no AC, but a fan really helps. Here's the view from my room...not very exciting I know.


I pretty much have nothing to do until next week when registration starts and all that jazz. I've already met a few people in my program who I really like, go figure since we have the same passion for refugee studies and human rights. Weird meeting people who are like you, but kinda cool too.

It's nice to be back...a little strange considering I've never gone back to live in a place where I've already dwelled for a season, other than coming home of course. Even coming home has been temporary each time. This is a whole new gig, this coming back thing. And I can't say how I feel about it yet.

Friday, August 17, 2007

some puzzle pieces are shaped the same

This week keeps reminding me of my last week in Uganda, this being the final week before I return to Egypt, one in which I've spent a lot of time reflecting, reading, aimlessly listening to music, and....going to Gulu? Well not that part, no adventures this week...in fact I've stayed as close to the inside of my bedroom as possible, only venturing out when absolutely necessary. This week just strangely parallels with that week in Uganda, months ago, when I was wrapping up a long overdue visit with some of my dearest friends in the world. I feel the same. A little detatched from reality, contemplative, often staring off into the distance, evaluating the past and planning for the future. And I keep thinking about the few days of that week that I journeyed up to Gulu in northern Uganda...things this week keep reminding me of it, moments shoot through my memory in pictures, flashbacks. I can go there so easily in my mind because I'm in the same frame of mind...

I'm glad that this transition brings that experience to the forefront of my mind, it drives me to pray for my friends, for the kids, for the displaced families, for the government, for Uganda.

Monday, August 13, 2007

Stateless

What would it feel like to have no identity connected with your place of birth? to be refused association with that place by the government? I don't put a whole lot of weight in my identity as an American because it has always been secondary to my identity as a child of God, but what if my US citizenship was stripped away...

Imagine having to prove you were born somewhere when all you have is a scribble of your birthdate on a scrap, or being stranded in a country that refuses to recognize you, or any of your rights...the Sudanese in Egypt, the Rohingya in Bangladesh, Palestinians in Canada, Filipinos in Malaysia....according to this article from the International Herald Tribune, there are at least 15 million of these stateless people in the world.

Greg Constantine is a photographer who has been following the Rohingya people's struggle and describes it a bit in this video.

Friday, August 10, 2007

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Who am I? I don't know. I guess i have a lot of things to ponder...

Today I was enlightened by my honey, who called after taking a Myers Briggs Indicator Type test thingy because after reading her report she was sure that I had the same personality profile as her, and based on the excerpts from her report I could only but agree...so I took a copy cat version of the test (already took it in college with the same result) and found out that yes, we have the same profile, and yes, ONLY 1% of the population shares this profile: INFP (Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Perceiving). Who are we? we are alone apparently.

No but really, who are we INFP-one-percent-of-the-world people? Well, according to a host of websites all of which recommended to me by the wizard (google), the list includes none other than--ahem--Mary mother of Christ...as well as Shakespeare, Homer, John F. Kennedy Jr., Helen Keller, Neil Diamond, Julia Roberts....blah blah blah.

Reading a critique of yourself as a "personality type" is mostly eerie, slightly exhilarating, not at all something you want to hinge your existence on...nevertheless, it's describing--me! It should be somewhat helpful I suppose.


I hate to copy and paste a load of text, but EVERY WORD is describing ME! Only take the time to read it if you really really want to know me. :) It just might be worth your while, if you feel so inclined.


You can take a sort of pretend version of the Myers Brigg test here. Do it! and tell me what type you are!


INFPs-live their lives focusing on their values. They know what is important to them and protect this at all cost. Their values focus on the optimistic verses the pessimistic, although they are often conscience of the negative. To understand the INFP is to understand their cause. They can work tirelessly toward a cause that deems worthy. They will quietly let others know what is important to them, and rarely will they give up on their purpose. They will go along with the crowd, sometimes even letting decisions be made for them, until someone violates their value system. Then they will dig their heels into the ground and will speak up for their feelings, insisting their values be followed.

INFPs are withdrawn and are sometimes hard to get to know. Some may view them as shy. But those that take the time to get to know them will find them warm and gentle, with a surprising sense of humor. They care deeply for those they consider special friends. Putting forth-unusual sacrifices to help such individuals. They often have a subtle, tragic motif running through their lives -- inner pain and unease which others seldom detect.

INFPs are creative and are constantly seeking out new possibilities. They have a gift with language and usually will express this by means of writing. Their intuitive preference supplies the imagination and their feeling preference giving them the need to communicate. They are gifted at interpreting symbols - being drawn to metaphors and similes. Because of these gifts they often write in lyric fashion.

INFPs work must be more than just a paycheck, it must be fun and must contribute to something that is important to their values. To be the most productive they need a sense of purpose behind their job. They often have to look at the large picture in order to see how specific programs fit in. They are adaptable to changes and to new ideas. They work well with others being conscious of others feelings and relating with most, though not always vocally. They like to work with others who are cooperative and who share their same set of values. They strive for harmony and dislike conflict.

INFPs treasure their privacy and may keep a lot to themselves. They need time and space for reflection. Others usually get along well with them, although they may not know them intimately. INFPs may not always be organized. They may tend to lose things or to forget appointments. Only when they see the importance of organization in a task will they strive to work at it in an organized way to get it done. They can be extremely patient with complicated issues, but may become impatient with routine and details.

INFPs strive for perfection, and this is especially the case when using their feeling preference. They may have trouble finishing a project, because they never find it is good enough. Even when the project must be finished, they may feel the need to go back and improve on it later.

Reluctantly INFPs may accept leadership roles. They lead with their values being their guide. They do not aggressively lead people, but rather work with people to develop their talents and to independently achieve their goals. They have a hard time criticizing others, but will try to motivate them by their appreciation and praise. When conflicts arise, they avoid directly approaching the situation, but would rather wait for the others to work out the situation themselves.

INFPs view leisure activity as very important. However they may have a difficulty separating it from work. If they have a special skill they use at work, they may use this skill in their leisure time to help friends, family or those in need. When they are interested in pursuing a new leisure activity, they may spend a great deal of time researching this activity. Many INFPs enjoy activities that are done alone such as reading, listening to music, or gardening. This gives them the opportunity for reflection and meditation. They may also enjoy social activities with those they feel close to. When they want to be social they can be outgoing, charming and quiet funny, making them a pleasure to have around.

INFP Strengths

  • Warmly concerned and caring towards others
  • Sensitive and perceptive about what others are feeling
  • Loyal and committed - they want lifelong relationships
  • Deep capacity for love and caring
  • Driven to meet other's needs
  • Strive for "win-win" situations
  • Nurturing, supportive and encouraging
  • Likely to recognize and appreciate other's need for space
  • Able to express themselves well
  • Flexible and diverse
INFP Weaknesses

  • May tend to be shy and reserved
  • Don't like to have their "space" invaded
  • Extreme dislike of conflict
  • Extreme dislike of criticism
  • Strong need to receive praise and positive affirmation
  • May react very emotionally to stressful situations
  • Have difficulty leaving a bad relationship
  • Have difficulty scolding or punishing others
  • Tend to be reserved about expressing their feelings
  • Perfectionistic tendancies may cause them to not give themselves enough credit
  • Tendency to blame themselves for problems, and hold everything on their own shoulders
(bela7 collapses.)

Sunday, August 5, 2007

'Egyptians killed 4 Sudanese on border'

Egyptian soldiers killed four Sudanese refugees near the Egypt-Israel border overnight Wednesday in full view of IDF troops, a shaken-sounding IDF soldier said in an interview with Channel 10, Thursday evening.

According to the soldier, female IDF troops operating night vision devices identified several refugees approaching the border in an attempt to infiltrate Israel and alerted other soldiers who arrived after a few minutes in an army jeep.

However, Egyptian troops who also discovered the refugees, fired upon them, immediately killing two and wounding a third. A fourth refugee ran towards the fence and an IDF soldier stretched out his hands, trying to help him cross.

At that point, the soldier recalled, two Egyptian soldiers arrived and started pulling at the refugee's legs.

"It was literally like we were playing 'tug of war' with this man," the soldier said. The soldier eventually loosened his grip on the man, fearing the Egyptians would shoot him.

"They were aiming loaded weapons straight at us, I was afraid they were going to shoot us," he said.

The Egyptians then carried the man several meters away from the border fence, and proceeded to beat him and another wounded refugee to death with stones and clubs.

"What happened there yesterday was a lynch. These are not men, they're animals. They killed him without even using firearms," the soldier said. "We just heard screams of pain and the sounds of beatings. Then the screams stopped."

The entire event was caught on IDF tapes, but the soldier said that his commanders, who were not at the site, would not dare watch them.

The entire incident took place on the Egyptian side of the border, IDF sources told Israel Radio later Thursday evening.

A Channel 10 commentator said the channel preferred not to show the tape, so as not to cause a diplomatic row with Egypt.

Egyptian authorities said that they would investigate the incident.


I am a witness to the fact that Sudanese refugees have it rough in Egypt, trying to get by in Cairo where they can't get jobs or social services, where they experience the wrath of discrimination from Egyptians who don't identify with Africa and generally harbor a disdain for all black skinned people. Egypt is a nasty place for the refugees, yet it's the most logical destination for a Sudanese fleeing his war torn homeland.

I want to fight for them!