people are silly

Sometimes i feel like we live in denial of the unwritten, unspoken world that exists between humans in relationship. Most people are familiar with the concepts of verbal and nonverbal communication, but nonverbal communication isn't just eye contact and how you cross your arms and sweating and all that, it's the combined force of everything you do with your body yes, but it's a comprehensive electric-ish undercurrent that you send out to everyone, EVERYONE does this! and whether you pick up on it or not, you can always tell how someone feels about you when your interacting with them, or only I can?? Maybe it's some personality thing that I have, but I feel extra sensitive to it, and I desperately wish more people would just be real (for lack of a better word--i'm venting). I notice it the most after I spend time with friends that are "real," meaning they're saying what reveals their true thoughts, acting in a way that reflects their true intentions...then I encounter someone who hides behind petty smiles and disingenuous behavior, and I sense something almost palpable in the air between us, and my insides are screaming: this is humiliating! cut through the crap and give me something organic, something that's yours! What do you do with people like that? Cut them out of my life? Wait for them to...whatever? Give them a piece of my mind? Let it go?

I wish the unwritten reflected the spoken, i wish the intangible matched the solid....really, I just wish certain persons wouldn't double cheek kiss me.